after a very long and tiring process, im back in university. i get to talk about art and feminism and porn and hide away in libraries and darkrooms. i am working on sorting out disability processes for my mental health so that i dont fall in a shitty dark hole again. the other week i had a pretty bad relapse on a lot of fronts. it was scary. i didnt know what was real, i didnt know how to breathe. im okay now. im excited about being alive and creating things and doing things that feel important. i have a lot of things to do in the upcoming weeks, with projects and friends and travelling to germany and the netherlands. anyway. this is a ramble to say that sometimes im absent because everything is going terribly wrong. but sometimes im quiet because good, big, wonderful things are happening. hello, how are you. i missed you.